They say that fairy tales are only for those who believe in them.
When once in your lifetime you find yourselves in a fairy tale, then it really
takes you a long time to come back. I simply don't want much time to pass; I
want to tell it while it still lasts, to steal that jewel from life that doesn't
happen twice...In these early hours, while the guitar is playing, I'm trying to
write a fairy tale about you and me but there aren't many words. I'm searching
for them somewhere in our kingdom but they keep running away, keep hiding. And I
don't know if I'm happy or sad, I don't know if I'm frightened. I only hear my
heart beating in the rhythm of the guitar and our souls breathing and uniting
while it is playing. I feel that you're with me even while you're dreaming, I
hear you while you are silent, I see you disappearing round our corner while
it's snowing. As my eyes are filling with tears I'm looking for words that are
worthy only of you but they don't exist. My entire kingdom is reflected in your
sad eyes. I live for their sparkle...and I wanted to whisper "I love you" so
many times, but just saying "I love you" is not enough, so little can be done in
this world to show my emotions to you. Even my paintings and this fairy tale of
ours in the world in which fairy tales don't exist for a long time aren't
enough. I miss you so much...I'm afraid to see you. You glow so much...I'm
looking for builders to build the way to the place where stars are being born.
You are so tender...I'm looking for the softest silk for your steps. You feel so
much...I've spelt my pearls to illuminate the traces of your soul. The strength
of my emotions makes me so helpless that I wish to run away from them, from you,
even though I know that each new dawn is going to have your name. And I don't
want to know if our fairy tale will last, I don't want to know what will happen
tomorrow. I only want to stop this moment in which our pure souls unite while
the guitar is playing. I only want to stop your look while you're looking at
"Always together" and the horses that bathe in the purple sunset. And I know
that we'll always be together there where we have left our traces. Our souls
will tremble like soft strings while some new fairy tales are being created.
Look for me while the guitar is playing, when sadness oppresses your heart and
I'll always be here, beside you...the jewel in your crown, a ray of your sun, a
white cloud in your blue sky, a river in your mountain, peace in your
unrest.
We will always be together when the guitar is playing,
author Suzana Stojanović, 03.20.2007.
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Kažu
da su bajke samo za one koji veruju u njih. Kada se u jednom životnom trenu
nađete u jednoj bajci onda vam zaista treba puno vremena da se vratite. Ja
jednostavno ne želim da prođe puno vremena, želim da je pričam dok još traje, da
ukradem taj dragulj od života koji se ne ponavlja. U ovim sitnim satima, dok
gitara svira, pokušavam da pišem bajku o tebi i meni a tako je malo reči. Jurim
ih negde po našem carstvu a one uporno beže, kriju se. I ne znam da li sam
srećna ili tužna, ne znam da li se bojim. Čujem samo svoje srce koje prati ritam
gitare i naše duše koje dišu i spajaju se uz njene zvuke. Osećam da si sa mnom i
dok sanjaš, čujem te dok ćutiš, vidim te kako nestaješ u pahuljama iza našeg
ugla. Dok suze mi magle oči tražim reči koje su dostojne samo tebe, ali one ne
postoje. Celo moje carstvo ogleda se u tvojim tužnim očima. Živim za njihov
sjaj...i mnogo puta htela sam da ti šapnem "volim te" ali malo je reći samo
"volim te", malo je toga na ovom svetu što se može uraditi da ti pokažem svoje
emocije. Male su i moje slike i ova naša bajka u svetu u kojem bajke odavno ne
postoje. Toliko mi nedostaješ...bojim se da te vidim. Toliko sijaš...tražim
graditelje da sagradim put do mesta gde rađaju se zvezde. Toliko si
nežan...tražim najmekše svile za tvoje korake. Toliko osećaš...prosula sam svoje
bisere da osvetle tragove tvoje duše. Toliko sam nemoćna pred snagom svojih
osećanja da poželim da pobegnem od njih, od tebe, a znam da će svaka nova zora
da piše tvoje ime. I ne želim da znam da li će naša bajka da traje, ne želim da
znam šta će biti sutra. Želim samo da zaustavim ovaj tren u kome spajaju se naše
čiste duše uz zvuke gitare. Želim samo da zaustavim tvoj pogled dok posmatraš
"Always together" i konje koji se kupaju u purpurju zalazećeg sunca. I znam da
ćemo uvek biti zajedno tamo gde smo ostavili naše tragove. Naše duše treperiće
poput nežnih žica dok se rađaju neke nove bajke. Potraži me uz zvuke gitare kad
tuga pritiska ti srce, i biću uvek tu, pored tebe...dragulj u tvojoj kruni, zrak
u tvom suncu, beli oblak u tvom plavom nebu, reka u tvojoj planini, mir u tvom
nemiru.
Uvek ćemo biti zajedno uz zvuke gitare, autor Suzana
Stojanović, 20.03.2007.
